Out doing what I Love to do, 26th March 2006 (one month after I started tx).
The post below are entries (word for word) from a little diary I kept at the beginning of my Hep C tx and although I have said I hate keeping written diaries (and I do) I still however managed to get some things down on paper and have only just thought of posting the stuff. It isn't much but might give a little insight into what was going through my mind back in the early days of my tx. I have entitled this batch of posts "Yesterday's Pornography" and this is batch #1 and so on. The name for the post's came simply because on the front of the pad I wrote them in I had written "Pornography Today" for some reason. So "Yesterday's Pornography" they will be know as on my Blog. I will try to include a photo that I took from around the date of the original post too.................Be prepared to be bored shitless........believe me, they do get pretty monotonous by #4 & #5! But you will have to wait for those in another post. Enjoy.
#1 of 5...
Written @ 13:41pm Wednesday 15th March 2006 (the day before my 4th Interferon Injection & 22 days after I started tx);
Am I special? Am I brave, strong, fearless etc etc? Well, I don't really know. I mean do I even have a choice? I suppose maybe they are the strong ones and I am the weak, hanging on to see what it's like at the end because I can't end it sooner on my own terms. What I really know is that I am willing to see what it's like at the end and see if I can beat it and last longer than all the others.
I started Interferon & Ribavirin for the benefit of the largest organ "in" my body (& getting bigger!), let's see if we can stop that shall we! A maximum of 48wks of treatment. I started Thursday 23rd Feb. I have to have an injection once a week & tablets everyday. Including my other tablets I am taking 21 pills per day. 4 of those are Multi-Vits & painkillers though. I take my 4th jab tomorrow at 23:30ish pm. Checkout side effects on the internet! Most people it seems can't handle the side effects but I will see! So far so good!
I got new neighbours upstairs, Graham & Debbie, they are absolutely perfect! Unlike my 'other' ones! Two words - Horrible Death! I have been up for coffee & chats 3 times. Very nice people indeed!
What else have I been doing? On April 6th 2006 I would have been going to the gym for 1 year. "Cannons" Richmond Athletics Club. It's a bit harder since my Interferon & Ribavirin! So I have to slow down a bit plus my right ankle is playing up again. Sometimes I suddenly can't walk at all and hobble out like a cripple! The pain is incredible! I haven't even been on my bike for a month, I was out on it 2-3 times a week! Still, the weather has been shit, when it warms up I will go out again round Richmond Park & meet Jac from the gym & go out with Lee too after he has put Evie to bed at 8pm. I hate writing sometimes, it's such a mess! Maybe it's the drugs or the pen or the surface I am writing on?
I am taking my Mum out to "Harvester" Betchworth, Surrey tomorrow. Dasiy is coming too. My Mum will be 63.
I have got to do something with my life! But what? Painting? Artistic painting that is! Not D.I.Y! Hurry up Summer weather!
(The next entry in my pad is a dream I had and although I would Love to include it in my Blog I just can't possibly do it! It is very rude!)
Written @ 11am Thursday 16th March 2006 (Day of my 4th Interferon Injection);
Freeze dried........(Unfortunately I had to leave this out as I think it may have been a little too rude and revealing to include it)
Written @ 13:08 Thursday 16th March 2006;
Wished my Mum a Happy Birthday by phone. She was on the bus coming back from Twickenham to Meadway for lunch. I shall collect her and Daisy from Tania's at 17:30-18:00 for fish & chips at Harvesters. It's grey out & I have to go out for Mums Birthday card. I would have made one but I don't feel like it.
Tele-Marketer rang and he said that he wasn't selling anything blah blah blah........I said, yes, well, I still don't want to talk to you do I! & hung up:)
Going to the gym too this afternoon.
Written @ 11:43 Friday 17th March 2006;
Had a nice meal I think, me, Mum & Daisy. We like those kind of places, but what is it about the finger prints all over the windows? And just the general grubbiness of the places? We listened to "Placebo" on the way home. Daisy likes them I think. I have to get Millie a present today for her 2nd Birthday which is tomorrow. I don't have a clue what to get yet?
Daisy wants money. I got my Mum a book. Also a bike when we get round to it.
Written @ 22:23 Saturday 18th March 2006;
I did go to the gym yesterday & I had a sunbed too. Anyway, it was (is) Millies Birthday today, 2 years old and we all went to Tania & Nathans (Naif) for lunch. I cycled there on my "Dessert Storm". Windy & cold! It was a nice day but as always I hate breathing in rooms with other people! (Dad, Mum, Lee, Nic, Evie, Tarn, Naif, Millie, Daisy & Me).
Bought two novels from 1976 from e-bay. Terry Nation's "Survivors". I quite often wish I was involved in a situation just like that one! Read the book & find out what I mean.......or watch the TV series instead. It is brilliant!
Written @ 14:40 Tuesday 21st March 2006 (two days before my 5th Interferon Injection);
Lee, Naif & I went for a hike on Sunday evening; 1 hour & 35 minutes. It was good. We walked around Norbury Estate. Before that, in the day, they went to Hayling Island? (Millie, Daisy, Mum, Naif & Tarn). They went to Brocketts farm yesterday. Daisy's 14th Birthday. I gave Daisy £80 & Millie £80 for a slide to go in the back garden. Today I got "Robot Chicken" on DVD from e-bay. The New Ian Curtis (Joy Division) film is being filmed later in the year. Sam Riley will play Ian in "Control".
Written @ 23:58 Friday 24th March 2006;
Nicola passed her driving test today, First time. I new she would. Just like me.
Been for a walk up Box Hill tonight with Lee. My ankle was quite painful but to prevent it from turning into a bleed I injected before & afterwards. It rained a bit but that was nice. Went to the RFH (Royal Free Hospital) for 2nd visit (3rd really). My knuckles are getting itchy & bumpy. E-45 works. Nothing to cry about. Very warm today......14 degrees. Dirty train and dirty people on it! Put on weight too. Two weeks ago I was 77.3kg and now I am 77.8kg.
I might get myself some Stormtrooper armour next week. £600. Made by the man who made the original Star Wars Stormtrooper armour back in 1976. I already have his "Stunt" helmet (£445). His name is Andrew Ainsworth.
Written @ 20:52 Sunday 26th March 2006 (Mothers Day & 4 days before my 6th Interferon injection);
Well I didn't see my Mum today, but I rang her up and wished her a HMD (I can't believe I didn't spend the day with her!).
I went for a bike ride at 2pm. Lee & I met Matt (Lee's work mate) at "Ryka's" Box Hill and we off-roaded it for over 2 & a half hours in rain & mud from Ryka's, past the Stepping Stone pub & "Box Hill & Westhumble" train station, up the long hill all the way across to Brockets farm & saw 3 Llamas, then we came back again. We had a great time and I am very Knackered and my foot was 'alright'! (see this posts photo)
Jason
P.s. If you don't want anymore just let me know;) & also if you think the dream should go in tell me;) Otherwise the next edition of "Yesterday's Pornography" will arrive on your Blogsteps sometime in the next week...
(C) JPT 2007
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5 comments:
did you get the storm trooper armour?
(Ample) He did get the armour! lol
Got a blood test on Monday (The Jooooy) mum wants to find out why i keep passing out or atleast feeling like it. I hate Injections.
See You Sometime
(by the way i posted a comment on your "Alabaster" thingy, just me going on about The mighty Boosh )
Daisy xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Daisy you cheeky monkey;) I was going to tell Amps that I did indeed get the armour but in another edition of my "Yesterday's Pornography";) I need to keep my fans coming back somehow;)
Anyway.........Passing out! Since when? I know you nearly passed out when you were with me in the summer when I took you around Richmond Park in 30 degrees heat but.........!
Needles aren't so bad Daisy. Just think of Noel Fielding and his beautiful hair and you won't feel a thing............It helps me anyway;)
P.s. When you going to update your Blog? Maybe do a Boosh related one:) Did Tania like the live DVD? Or is she still infatuated with the dark highwayman without his cloak & mask that is Mr Brand;)
Jaexxxx
I am your sister and I don't think you should print your dream as I know you too well!!
Did you know, what with your 9 obsession, that Millie was born on the 18th of March (course you did, but did you notice) and that 1+8=9 and March is the 3rd month 3x3=9.
And also this - 2x9=18=9, 3x9=27=9,4x9=36=9,5x9=45=9 etc etc. No other timestable does that. Is this why it's your good number??
I'm quite liking Noel now!!
Dude, post the dream! How rude can it be?! Besides, now you've hung it out there and baited our curiosity... it would be totally cruel to stir up our appetite without bedding it back down. :-)
And yes, keep posting from the journal. It may seem mundane to you, but sometimes it's the unremarkable moments of our lives that say the most about who we really are.
Cheers!
Chris
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