Monday, November 13, 2006

Minerva in "The Stealer of Dis/ease"



The un-masking of Minerva's mask took place recently in a small but popular part of London, on a dark, mild evening with two others in attendance. Minerva (The Mask Maker) & The Dude (Of Clan de Fang). The mask didn't have a name right then, but as time progressed & a little idea from "M" a name was found and I have named it "The Dis\ease Thief". My mask which was made by my friend Minerva, has actually been made from ground down coal. As you can see, the result is spectacular. I was asked what it should look like and straight away I thought dark! Dark & hard like stone or a star filled night. Mouth closed, because I have nothing at all to ask for nor to say, as I much prefer to peer through small slits in a wall of blackness. Eyes small and expressionless. I didn't want to give anything away.........I wanted to hide! And where better to hide than in the night, surrounded by stone or rock. Impenatrable, but all seeing and all knowing. I can hide now. I am not running.....but hiding comfortably:)
I'm not sure what I am hiding from, My past health, My future health, but goodness knows I have needed a good mask in the past, & will someday need one in the future, but everyone needs a good hiding place, where one can feel invisible & safe, but able to see out also.
Coal is a very interesting material! It is made from the living/dying earth and does a very good job of keeping us alive. It does however have a bad side, but that isn't my fault! I didn't invent Electricity! But I, Just an invisible speck amongst so many more, can only do my best!
It also has been carried by thieves in ages gone to help protect them when pursued, from capture. I often feel like a thief, trying to evade the inevitable manky fingernails of death, digging deep into my flesh never to let go! I should be dead right, but somehow have been spared capture. Now with my mask, I am almost certain to be one step ahead forever! Dark, wonderful at hiding and completely invisible..........My Mask:)
In return, albeit pretty tame compared with a tool such as Minerva's mask, I drew, cut and wrote a card for them both to thank them for the mask and for inviting me over for the evening. We all had a wonderful time indeed:) Time flew and laughs were had.......but it all had to come to an end. But two great friendships were forged that night and these kind have a tendancy to last for quite some time! Thanks G & M:)

In other news, I am doing very well with being on my Interferon & Ribavirin tx for Hep C. No side effects that I know of and the little ones I did seem to have are long gone. Like my numb finger and Riba Rage. I am obviously very happy!
My cycling had to be put on hold for a few days recently, because I pulled a muscle in my back on Tuesday last week and haven't been out on it since Thursday night. But today I was back out on "Dessert Storm" and had a nice 2 hour bike ride around a very windy Richmond Park. I was the only one on the Tamsin Trail tonight. I didn't see another soul on it. I did however see quite a few Deer hiding from "Her Majesty's Cullers". Like ghosts in my peripheral vision, loitering at the edge of death perhaps! At 8pm every night until early in the morning, a series of sharp cracks can be heard echoing across the park as a select amount of Deer are put to sleep! Mid December will be their time to breathe again.
So there I was, riding in the wind, which was being quite good to me tonight, by giving me a push every now & then. I met my friend Jac at the gym she goes to after work on my way home. I don't miss the gym at all! To many germs and over proportioned ego's you can keep! Jac wants me to go join. But I just can't do it in there! Yes, it will get cold soon as the Winter takes a firm icy grip on my balls, but rather cold nads than another germ!

My four weekly bloods were taken today at the Royal Free Hospital. It was interesting talking to my Doctor all about my time on tx so far. I have 10 injections left out of 48 and we were talking about how it can effect everyone in such different ways. And also that the medical profession as a whole aren't really to bothered about just how Underdiagnosed the Hep C Virus is! Because, if they were all to be diagnosed, then that would cost too much and they don't want to even think about that! Not my words folks!
Can I see the finish line I was asked. To which I replied........I could see it, almost touch it bloody months ago! I feel I have already finished tx in some ways. My time on tx has so far been excellent. I must be very strong. I must be very healthy. I must be the Son of Superman..........I must be very F*****g lucky more like!!!

Jason

P.s. Thank you to Minerva for that "word".

5 comments:

Anonymous said...

Awesome piece of writing jae fluid with clarity, we'll see you again soon f'sure. Great evening reckon on holding a get together before I leave my old flat! speak to u soon keep posting respect Clan de Fang

ps
speak soon gotta tie up some loose ends first.

Jason Paul Tolmie said...

You're such a diamond! Thanks de Fang:)

I'd Love to come by again sometime. Just let me know when dude.

Jae of Clan de Fang

Ample said...

Fantastic mask! "Dis/ease", perfect. wow she's really talented!

I'm so glad you've had no noticable sides! You've stayed on your bike and in the outdoors... just where you need to be, living. You're wonderful. -Ample

minerva said...

Hi Jae,

Loved your writing and feel humbled that your mask means so much to you!!

Love what you have named it too. :D

I agree, we all need a mask sometimes...somewhere to go and hide and/or be alone. Fascinated and inspired by the symbolism 'The Dis/ease Thief' holds for you...you really are one of a kind!! :)

It was a wonderful evening Jae and a real pleasure to meet you.

You are very strong, and very healthy....and as for lucky....well, can't think of anyone more deserving of it than yourself ;)

Live long and prosper my good friend!! :)

Hugs
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p.s. thnxs Ample.x

carol said...

Great mask! Wait till you see some of 'M's' art work, one talanted lady.
Good to hear you are doing so well.